someone does care....

      i've learned a lot these past few years.. through my fakes smiles and unseen tears....that friends sometimes are not forever.. and true love does not always last....
      the good memories stay with u..but moments go fast....
      but someone will always be there..someone who honestly does care....

     i've accepted that we can't be..but i've also accepted that u're going to be that one person i carry with me for the rest of my life.....

     the one that's always going to make my heart jump a little ..n my stomach tie up in knots....

      and u'll always be able to make me happy.....

      no matter how long it's been.....

                                      

someone....

       i want someone who i know  will stay with me when times get tough.....
      someone who hug and kiss when i have enough....
      when i get tired of hearing the same stuff everyday....
      someone to tell me.."baby, it's going to be okay.."

                                         
                                                     
                                                     
  
                             
  

just because....

        because u're the kind of guy who'd laugh at me when i fall...help me up and then whisper "it's okay because i love u..."
       u want to know why i love u?...why i chose u?...because u saw me when i was invisible....
       since the first time u ran your fingers through my hair...since the first time your hugs eased my pain...i knew...there was no one else out there for me....
       u are the kind of guy who used to do stupid things just to make me smile....
       and i'm the kind of girl who needs a guy like u every once in a while....
                                           

                                                     
      

changes....

      change is never easy...u fight to hold on...and u fight to let go....
      breathe..let go...and remind urself that this very moment is the only one u know u have for sure....

                                         

      u know u love someone when u want them to be happy...even if their happiness means that u are not part of it...

      it's when u shed tears for him.. but still u care for him... it's when he ignored u..but u still long for him...

      it's when he starts loving another..and yet u manage a smile and find the courage to say "i am happy for u"....

                                               

it hurts...

      and...if it all falls apart...i will know deep in my heart...the only dream that mattered had come true...
      in this life...i was loved by u...
     
      it hurts when u say goodbye...
      it hurts when u have to leave...
      it hurts when u are gone...
      and i don't think u understand...
      just how much i'm gonna miss u...
      but..i know now...it's better an ending with pain...
      than a pain without ending...


      loving u is what i've learned so easily...trying to forget u is the last thing i could possibly learn ...because i'm deeply in love with u...

                                                      

                                                      

love..love..and more love...

  
      LOVE make the time pass...
              time makes love pass...


      The way to LOVE anything is to realize that it might be lost...


      No cord or cable can draw so forcibly or bind so fast...
           as LOVE can do with a single thread...


      LOVE is a wonderful thing...u never have to take it away from one person to give it to 
               another...
               there's always more than enough to go around...


      No one has ever loved anyone the way everyone wants to be loved...


      LOVE never dies a natural death...
               it dies because we don't know how to replenish its source...
               it dies of blindness and errors and betrayals...
               it dies of illness and wounds...
               it dies of weariness..of withering..of tarnishing..


                        

what u need...

                    

                                          

the fairy tale is gone.....

      it's hard to lose someone u love...to finally say goodbye...i try to be strong...but the pain keeps holding on...and all i can do is cry...
      deep within my heart...i know it's time to move on...
      when the fairy tales i once knew...is GONE...
      but i want to remember how u have made me laugh...and sometimes cry...
      i never want to forget how special and different u are...and how u touch my heart in a way that no one else could...
      they say memories last forever...i sit here...thinking about u and all the times i had u by my side...
      i remember the smile that crept on my face.. and the happy tears that ran down my cheeks...i see your gentle eyes looking at me.. and i can feel your presence when i close my eyes...
      but when i reach for u... i feel u slipping away...it's like my memory is fading.....

                                                    

don't...

      DON'T ever give up...if u still want to try...
          DON'T ever wipe your tears...if u still want to cry...
      DON'T ever settle for an answer...if u still want to know...
          DON'T ever say u don't love him...if u can't let him go....


      DON'T want to leave...but we both know...sometimes it's better to go...
       somehow i know...we'll meet again...
       not sure quite where and i don't know just when...
       u are in my heart...
       so until then...wanna smile...wanna cry...
       saying good bye......

i wonder...

                                                      

                                                  

love..n friendship..

                

                                                   

still about LOVE...~

      
        i trust u is a better compliment than i LOVE u...
       because u may not always trust the person u LOVE...
       but u can always LOVE the person u trust...


when i first saw u...i was afraid to talk to u...
when i first talked to u...i was afraid to like u...
when i first liked u...i was afraid to love u...
now that i LOVE u...i am afraid to lose u!...


          LOVE... is more than half a book in a girls life...
                  but in a guys...its only a chapter...


if u find yourself in LOVE with a person who doesn't love u...be gentle with yourself...there's nothing wrong with u...LOVE just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart...

LOVE...~

LOVE...is giving someone the power to destroy u...
           but trusting them not to...


        LOVE...there is only one kind of love...
                     but there are thousand imitations...


LOVE...that's the thing about love and romance...
             no one can predict where it will take u..
            .love will fill your heart...break your heart...and then...
             heal the heart that's broken...


   LOVE...u can give without loving...
          but u cannot love without giving...
              

          a guy and a girl can be just friends...but at one point...one of them will fall for the other...
          may be temporarily...may be at the wrong time...may be too late...or may be..just may be...
          forever...

                                                            
                                    

                                                   

life goes on...

                                                  

no fairy tale....

        i was searching for love for quite a while...then..i have found someone...i thought it would last forever, but i was wrong...so wrong...
        in the middle of my loneliness and longing...in the middle of being so alone in a place where no one seems to care...you came along...you found me there...
        when i first met you...we started off as friends...never dreaming what we'd have to go through...
        now...here we stand...afraid of the future...no more going back to the beginning with you...
        when we started..we were friends...but that's not how this fairy tale is going to end...see..i was thinking and it clicked one day...that only you can make me feel this way....
                                                

                                                      
       

someone asked me....

                                            

i wish...

       i wish...u were here with me...
      i wish...i was there with u...
      but most of all...
      i wish...i didn't have to wish for u...

once...

     of all the moment in my life...u were always there somewhere... once..as a wish..once..as a blessing..and now as the greatest loss i'll ever experience....

                         

when i think of you...

      when i think of you...what comes to mind is all de great time we've shared...u are one of those special people who make life worth living...because u have taken the time to care.....


    ... love can be a simple smile...
    ... love can be the extra mile...
    ... love can be the chance to say...
    ... love made me think of u today...

you know that feeling....

                                  

i have come to love you...

      if i could only stop what i feel for you...if i could only let it die down...if i could only put myself away from the shadow of you, then i would...
     however, it is hard to ignore this feeling so intense that i feel for you...it is so deep as the still waters, as strong as mountain standing, so tell me, how can i fight this feelings when i know, i don't even know how to do it...
     many times, i've told myself that there is no room for you and me because we are world apart. however, i cannot deny deep inside my heart... i'm still hoping for the two of us...
     i'm still hoping that someday love will give us a way to share a world...but like i said we are world apart, and i think it is really impossible for us to have a life together...
     the distance between us doesn't mean that i have to stop loving you...because i just know that i cannot do it...
     i would rather let it stay than let it go...i would rather feel the pain, if it means loving you cause it is enough for me that i have come to love you...

                                 


                        

a reminder....

 

i can't love you the way i want.....

    i'm not quite sure where to begin...

for one..i do cherish our friendship..you and i have shared things and conversations about our lives that i would never with anyone else...the main reason is because i trust you and you listen to me...and you can always make me smile..i cant answer why you have that affect on me, maybe it's the fact that we have become such good(?) friends...to be quite honest, i dont trust people very easily...
     i think that's why i did let that wall down and let you into my life and my heart, because i felt safe..., so let me ask you...why do i feel like building it back up??
     i do think that i have become a little dependant on you being there and wanting to talk to you...that doesnt necessarily mean seeing you everyday, or a three-hour phone call, but just the reassurance to know that you are in fact still there....
     i know it's not easy for you...but i'm not asking you to call me everyday..or chat on9 every nite...just send me an email....asking a few stuff like.."hi, how are you..how was your day..." ..is that too much for you..??
   
    i cant continue feeling the way that i have been lately...you give me a mixture of extreme happiness along with confusion...i long for so much more..i need so much more..maybe i have no right to need it, but i do..i've tried so hard to fight these feelings i have...but i cant do it anymore...
    i miss you..and if for whatever reason things dont work out between us, that's perfectly fine. i will take it as fate passed me by and that we just weren't meant to be together...
    whatever the outcome might be, know that i'm so happy to still have you as part of my life...
    the last thing i want is for our friendship to be ended...you've been there for me when i needed you most.
    as one chapter of my life ended, you gave me hope and you showed me reasons..
    it's difficult to be rational when emotions concerned....deep in my heart, it's me to be blamed...
    i cant love you in the way i want.....

    

no looking back...

      it truly seems like i've known you forever and i honestly can't imagine life without you now...there will be no looking back, no second thought and no regrets....
    sometimes life hits you with unexpected things that take you totally by surprise...all i can say is , you are the best surprise life has been given me...
    i've truly been blessed by finding you and i'll never let you go...there will always be a place in my heart that you'll be fondly fondly remembered....
    when i think of you,what comes to mind is all the great time we shared...you are one of those special people who make life worth living....

     

thank you....

     B...you give me the most amazing feeling inside...the feeling of being in love with you...
     this is my way of showing you how much i truly care for you...i can't really find the words to explain the way i feel when i hear your voice...all i can say is that i like the feeling that i feel....
     no matter where this life takes us...together or not...know that you will always be in my heart and my favourite....thank you...

    

best time of my life....

     i miss you when something really good happens,.. because you are the one i want to share it with...
     i miss you when something is troubling me,.. because you are the one who understands me so well....
     i miss you when i laugh and cry... because i know that you are the one who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear...
     i miss you all the time...but i miss you the most... when i lie awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other,.. for those were some of the best memorable times of my life....

give it a go....

      this is a new story of my life...i've met someone new...but i'm not sure how this story is going to end...
    hello you..we only knew each other for a couple of weeks and you already had me completely and totally to yourself...i don't even want to think about being with anyone else...i thought that if i stopped being friend with you, i would forget how i felt..i thought if i kept myself busy, i would be okay...but i can't forget and i'm not okay...
     i am so overwhelmed by my feeling for you...i need to hear your voice..i can't let you go without seeing you at least once.
     i know that i told you that i ain't looking to rush into anything...this has just been eating away at my heart for awhile now and i couldn't hold it in anymore... this doesn't mean that i want to run off and get married or anything crazy like that...it just means that i do love you...i am here for you whenever you need me...
     i want to spend sometime in my life with you...not necessarily forever, but i don't want things to be over right now....so..what do you say...would you like to give it a go?

                                 

i am your only love....

      hmm...it's time to start all over again....to rewrite the story of my life....i want a happy life...you're no longer with me but your memories will always stay...deep in my heart.....
    i still remember your last words...two days before you left, we had an argument about starting a new life with someone else..i thought you'd changed, that you'd found someone new..but i was wrong..now i know, it's not about you...,but me...
    it's like, you knew you're going to leave me and you wanted me to find a new love....i don't know if i am capable of doing that...but, still it helps knowing you'd given me your blessing...
    "i will always love you...you are the only one until the day i die..."and you kept your promise..i was the only love you had until the day you're taken away from my life forever....i really miss you...

    

i really miss you....

         my beloved...i really miss you...all i have now is our memories..and i'll keep them till the day i die..insyaAllah...
      you left a big hole in my heart and i don't think i'll be the same again.....miss you..miss you!!! and i don't know what to do about it....
      i hope someday i'll find a way to relieve the pain inside my heart.....

pink roses...

          hmmm...always be my favourite colour...used to have friends who called me PINK...just added this picture because it suites me....;)
       still remember a secret admirer from the past...he didn't know my name...so he called me PINK...and he bought me gifts, everythings in pink...he's really a nice guy, but i didn't consider him as someone special...just a friend i liked....i think, that's what made him go away in the end....

always friends...

      met a long lost friend in facebook...frankly, i don't quite remember who he is...just add him because we used to study at the same college....
     seems like he knows me though...(sorry for that bro..really, i cannot recall who you are...)  but, after we had a long "talk"...i felt like i've known him forever..seems to have many things in common..
      well bro...i like you a lot...thanks for the add.....hope we can be friends...if only we met in other circumtances.....we probably will end up together...but, no regrets...we will still be friends...and a good one i hope..

     

my beloved....

 

will always love you!!

 

forever in my heart...

       i must be crazy tonite coz i keep thinking of you....i hope that you know that i  will never forget you....you'll always have a special place in my heart...

my hopes...

.

       i hope one day, i 'll meet someone who can be a best friend like you used to...
     i am not looking for your replacement...just a friend who will stand by my side...who will always be there when i need him...who will love me for who i am....i hope.......  

a note for you....

  

my dreams....

      hmmm...new entry for a new blog...what to write...want to share my dreams...  i'd guess, i still have a dream...never thought it would be possible... but here i am .....
      since you'd been gone...i am quite lost without you...only Allah knows how much i miss you...sometimes, i question myself..why me?...i really need you by my side, to share all the burdens, to share all the joy with you and our kids....
how i miss you......
      somedays i feel broke inside..but for the kids, i have to go on..i have to show them how strong i am...but deep inside, i admit, i am not that strong...
sometimes i wonder,are you looking down upon me?..are you proud of me and the kids?..if only you could see us now....
     gosh...it seems that i cannot stop these tears...thinking of you always make me cry...i loved you so much!! sometimes i wish you could come back and take this pain away...take these tears away....i need your arms to hold me..i need to hold you beside me...i need you to know how much that i've missed you since you've been away....i'm dying inside....
      if i could turn back time.....but i can't..so, i'd guess i have to move on without you..i have a dream..if one day i'm going to meet someone new...i hope he'll be as good, as sweet as you...you'll always be in my heart...no matter what happen in the future....
      how i miss you...may Allah bless you always...alfatihah....