i'm not quite sure where to begin...
for one..i do cherish our friendship..you and i have shared things and conversations about our lives that i would never with anyone else...the main reason is because i trust you and you listen to me...and you can always make me smile..i cant answer why you have that affect on me, maybe it's the fact that we have become such good(?) friends...to be quite honest, i dont trust people very easily...
i think that's why i did let that wall down and let you into my life and my heart, because i felt safe..., so let me ask you...why do i feel like building it back up??
i do think that i have become a little dependant on you being there and wanting to talk to you...that doesnt necessarily mean seeing you everyday, or a three-hour phone call, but just the reassurance to know that you are in fact still there....
i know it's not easy for you...but i'm not asking you to call me everyday..or chat on9 every nite...just send me an email....asking a few stuff like.."hi, how are you..how was your day..." ..is that too much for you..??
i cant continue feeling the way that i have been lately...you give me a mixture of extreme happiness along with confusion...i long for so much more..i need so much more..maybe i have no right to need it, but i do..i've tried so hard to fight these feelings i have...but i cant do it anymore...
i miss you..and if for whatever reason things dont work out between us, that's perfectly fine. i will take it as fate passed me by and that we just weren't meant to be together...
whatever the outcome might be, know that i'm so happy to still have you as part of my life...
the last thing i want is for our friendship to be ended...you've been there for me when i needed you most.
as one chapter of my life ended, you gave me hope and you showed me reasons..
it's difficult to be rational when emotions concerned....deep in my heart, it's me to be blamed...
i cant love you in the way i want.....
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